Destruction vs. Defeat

Here I am again stuck in bed with yet another infection and another POTS flare up.I know that I have a chronic illness that will never go away and logically I know that I am prone to illness and infection but I still think about the possibility that some day my body will no longer be this vulnerable. I started getting a little cough and chest cold on Friday and by Monday it had turned into Pneumonia . I just can't help but think when will this ever end ? Days like this I feel absolutely defeated . Like no matter what I do things will never get better. Whenever I feel like giving up I read through the journal that I started while I was in the Traumatic Brain Injury Rehab Center recovering from my stroke. Re-reading it always provides me with the strength to keep going and reminds me of just how far I've come. I have realized that my fragile body and delicate immune system may face destruction on a regular basis but it has not been defeated. Destruction is a physical act but defeat can not happen unless you allow it to. As long as you continue to fight you can never be defeated. I'm going to try my very best to look at future challenges in this way. Thank ya'll for allowing me to share my story and for continuing to read :)